Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Tired

apoligies and manogomy two things far from the same. Tired of the light, lies, and air that fills my lungs. Death and darkness is what I wish for. Tired of the stress and pain. Unhappiness, lonliness, hurt, pain, and betrayl must be other ways to spell my name. Done with life and trying to fullfil it, its just not in the cards for me. Untitled I am as well as alone even my best friend has walked out the door. Instead of above I belong under the floor. Silence, darkness, and coldness is what I wish for, so i take this gun and pull the trigger, goodbye

Heart broken i am.

So I fell for someone and I fell hard, but I lied to soften their guilt for their rejection of me. I vowed not to contradict myself and I keep my promises to others so why cant I keep them for myself? This silence of our conflict has not only hurt my heart, but my mind. Heart broken I am, but my love is forever for them. Lies for love? No never lies for self gratification and defeat. They are being held back from the truth, and I already know the outcome, but my love must find out for themself. They refuse to be my love and now they refuse to be my friend, heart broken I am. As our lips almost touched my heart skipped a beat, and the temptation was unbearable, but my love for them would not allow me to go through with it because of their decisions. I've lost my love, but overall which is most important my friend and as I type this unknown literature the tears begin. I cry because that smile for me will cease to exist. Those eyes will only be seen if I pumble myself with my fist. My heart aches and the tears fall for falling in love I've lost it all. So the poems that they read and thought it wasn't about them, but instead it was because I always saw them as more than a friend. My heart is broken and now i fall im done with love done with it all